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| i dont think i can do this anymore. xanga is not really my main priority right now - my actual LIFE is. i mean, i do have a life, i know it might be a shock.. and i really just wana spend loads of time with my family and friends just doing stuff like a teenage girls meant to do. i think you should check out my personal if you want a weekly update of whats going on in shans life. but for now im closing. i might come back after a while, y'know, once ive got my life sorted out and its actually moving in the direction i want. i'll come back with a load of new materials, might just start a new site off. but all i know for now is that xanga isnt really top of my list. be back soon, i hope.
SHAN.
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| i am actually SO sorry.
i promised you like, a few updates, i think (?) but ive been really busy recently.
its my summer break! woo! but ive been out with friends and stuff.
BUT, ive managed to collect quite a few quotes, a few made by me.
im not gona do the whole underlining/bolding/italicizing job, its far too late & im really annoyed.
i promise some more frequent updates next week. oxoxo one.
the sad thing is, you can still love someone,
but be completely wrong for them.
- Elvis Presley. two.
You are the only one who has ever touched my heart.
It will always be yours.
Sleep, my only love.
- Edward Cullen, Eclipse. three.
Let me tell you about the birds and the bees,
the flowers and the trees, the moon up above
and a thing called love. four.
it was one of those times you feel a sense of loss,
even though you didn't have something in the
first place. i guess that's what disappointment is;
a sense of loss for something you never had. five.
tell your boyfriend, if he says hes got beef.
that i'm a vegetarian, and i ain't fucking scared of him.
- 3!oh3 - Dont trust me. six.
i'm not gona say that it was all lies. that i didnt feel anything for you. that it was all an act. because, as hard as i try, we both know that it was real. it was there; the spark when our eyes met, the tingle when our hands touched, the fireworks through our first kiss. im not gona pretend that it wasnt real, that it wasnt my first teenage love. seven.
just one thing that i really need from you now-
because you asked me to- at least give me a chance to move on with my life. eight.
a part of me urges you to turn around and laugh in my face,
tell me i'm wrong. that i let go of everything i ever wanted,
everything i ever had, and that i didnt even know it. nine.
most people call me shan,
but you can call me tonight. (: ten.
I don't know who invented high heels, but all women owe him a lot.
- Marylin Monroe. eleven.
It’s not like love at first sight, really. It’s more like.. gravity moves.
When you see her, suddenly it’s not the earth holding you here anymore.
She does. And nothing matters more than her. And you would do anything for her, be anything for her… You become whatever she needs you to be, whether that’s a protector, or a lover, or a friend, or a brother.
- Jacob Black, Eclipse twelve.
look back to last year. who was there, & who still is..
but who isnt? for once in my life, i'll admt i was wrong- i thought i would
spend my days with someone, bestfriends always.
but although i might want that person back in my life,
i'll be strong enough to say, 'if she wants to be back in my life as much as i want her, she'll find a way.' (unseen_wishes) thirteen.
Loving you was easy.. playing by the rules.
but you say love tastes so much better when it's cruel.
- James Morrison - Nothing ever hurt like you.
(amazing song, its really got some old school vibes.) thirteen. unlucky for some. i hope it doesnt bring me anymore bad luck.
hey, i'd update my personal with everything thats going on in my life right now,
but i physically cant. im so drained, and tired, i only got 6 hours sleep last night, and angry.
i'll update tomorrow, probably. xoxo question?
Have you ever been in love? favourite quote & your answer in a comment? | | |
| HEY. wow, i deprive you lot. i'm sorry, i just have no time. things are kinda, complicated.
ps. i break up from school this time next week, so i think i'm gona update big time to celebrate summer. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx [#1]
They'll pass each other in the halls
and they’ll both exchange glances
but don’t speak to each other
‘cause they're both afraid of taking chances. [#2]
"When you've got nothing, you've got nothing to lose."
[#3]
All i really want is to feel wanted. If most girls are like me, that's what they want most. Just make her feel wanted, that you see past her flaws, that her imperfections are perfect for you. I'm not going to tell you how to love someone, but thats all most girls want, i assure you. She just wants to feel loved.
- unseen_wishes [#4]
I just hope you never find that case under my bed, stuffed to burst with my love confessions. 
.. i very much fancy this guy. bring on new moon!
[#5]
A rumour can get half way around the world while the truth is still putting its shoes on. [#6]
I thought I’d explained it clearly before.
I can’t live in a world where you don’t exist.
- Edward Cullen - New Moon.
[#7]
There are 3 things in life that should never be broken; promises, friendships, and hearts. [#8]
The rain on her face, mascara smudged, hair wavy, lying in the grass.
But still, she wants to remember this night forever. For how beautiful it is,
because he was there, next to her. And it was perfect. All perfect. 
..i absolutely adore him. he's gorgeous, right? (L)
[#9]
For us, forever just isn't long enough. [#10]
The music's not too LOUD, you're just too OLD.   
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| SURVEY TIME
(because i have no quotes to update with, and im rather annoyed.) Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
yea, right now,
Are you cheating on someone right now?
of course i am. :/ no, im not. im not that mean.
Anyone you're giving up on?
yea. the same person as the first question. "/
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face? about 4 hours ago.
Do you like Subway?
yea, its ok.
Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
jake :)
Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
ew no.
Do you talk in your sleep?
not that i know of ?
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
yess, jake. :)
If you were offered to smoke some weed right now, would you?
naa.
Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
naaa. its too late.
Have you held hands with anyone this week?
naa, but kinda. me & connor walked half holding hands?
Do you and your best friend look anything alike?
no.
Do you ignore people when you're mad/upset with them?
na i tend to have a go at them & get it out in the open.
Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
of course.
Do you think you've changed over the past year?
yea, definitely. i duno if thats good or bad.
Do you hate the last person you kissed?
naa, it was my mum.
Do you trust all your friends?
not all of them, but most.
Huge plans this weekend?
naa, not yet.
Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
yeaa, all the time. & a fan on.
Are you available?
ahem, yes. :/
Could you date someone taller than you?
i dont have much choice. lmao.
What is something that you realized today?
i need to move on / get over him because he's a dick, and i need to concentrate more on the more likely boys.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
i hope. probably not, tho.
You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
water?
Are you a patient person?
not really, no.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
yeaa.
Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
naa, i hate talkingg on the phone, i text lots though.
Were you happy when you woke up today?
not particularly, no. :/
What pisses you off a whole lot?
boys.
How have you felt today?
pissed off. "/
Do you have any plans for tomorrow?
hm, yes. school.
Interested in anyone at the moment?
dont be so silly. of course i am.
What was the last movie you saw in theaters? When?
Twilight, a few days after it came out. (yes, it was ages ago)
Do you own shoes that cost more than $100?
naa, not that lucky. :)
Is your birthday soon?
only just had it.
Where do you go when you want to get a REALLY good sub sandwich?
subway, duh.
What's in your pocket?
naa, i have no pockets.
Do people ever mistake you for being a different race?
no?
Could you cry right now?
yesss.
Have you ever been awake for 2 days straight?
naaa.
Are you mad at someone right now?
extremely.
Last person you told a secret to?
jake.
Do you like hugs and kisses?
yea, kinda.
If something was wrong, who is the first boy you would go to?
hm, jake or connor.
Currently wanting anything or anyone?
hm, of course i am.
Have you chewed gum after someone else already has? ew, no.
Do you bump into someones arm if you want to hold their hand?
naa, im not cunning like that :) i dont really like holding hands.
Do you ever bite your lip?
naa, not really.
Do you give up easily?
na, i persevere.
Will you be in bed within the next 20 minutes?
im in bed right now, doing this & watching big brother.
Done anything illegal in the past month?
naa.
Tell me about the shirt you're wearing?
its mainly blue. with red edges. and in the middle theres a superman logo.
Do you have a lot of drama in your life
of course i do.
How do you feel right now?
tired, really.
Do you get pissed off easily?
yea, quite a bit.
Who are your last four texts from?
i dont actually know. my phones ran out of charge.
Do you believe at love at first sight?
naa.
When was the last time you cried?
earlier.
Have you taken a shower today?
naa.
Would you say that you're an understanding person?
yea, kinda.
What is the number one website you use?
facebook.
Who was the last person to make you have a REAL smile?
jake.
Have you ever felt heartbreak?
for sure.
Do you think relationships are a waste of time?
naa, if you like someone, then its worth it.
What is one artist that you listen to that not many other people do?
duno.
Have you ever written a letter and never sent it?
yeaa, gets out emotions.
How'd you sleep last night?
no covers, a fan on, and my phone under my pillow because it was still on msn. aha.
Where was your display picture taken?
facebook - frankie and bennies. msn - my living room.
Do you blog?
obviously.
What do you usually order at Starbucks?
i dont really go starbucks.
What is your cell phone's wallpaper of?
me & emma at frankie and bennies.
Do you listen to any band/artist that NONE of your friends have heard about?
yess, livvi franc.
Are your teeth straight?
they are now. thanks to the devil braces.
Who has the same middle name as you?
noone! have you heard it?! CONNELLY?!
What kind of deodorant do you use?
dove / nivea.
Has anyone ever been in love with you?
i dont know. ask them?
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| i dont know about you, but i hate it when people suddenly change their mood. like, a few hours ago, i was talking to this guy. i told you about him in one of my other blogs, he's just left school and he told me he likes me and i like him, but, yea, i was talking to him for about an hour, and then all of a sudden he just goes all moody and ignorant and then i put as my status on facebook about oasis, the band, and how i wana go and see them in concert tomorrow night. and then he made a comment that 'oasis are crap' & i was like, ok, we all have our own opinions, so joking, i put back, 'god, you have no sense of good music' & then he starts on this rant like 'ive been to 4 festivals and blah blah blah and im sorry that im not into your mainstream crap' and then it stopped there, and then a few minutes later his status comes up like 'im already bored of all this oasis crap' & i was like 'whats so bad about them, anyway?!' & he didnt reply. but then this other girl, jess, says that 'they're alright' and he's like 'yea, they're not bad' & im like, how bizarre, when you've just completely had a go at me for saying i like them?! & then he tells us that hes actually going to the concert, so jess calls him a hypocrite and he goes 'so, its me, annabel, hairy (nickname), jaquesy and niall against jess and hewins (nickname)' (the thing that gets me is, ive blatently just commented on his status about 4 times, and he's completely ignoring me.) and to be quite honest, i don't know where i stand with him anymore, because at night times, like, when theres hardly any people online, he'll talk to me, and we'll get along fine. but as soon as i go to talk to him, its a completely different story, and he completely ignores me. seriously, am i reading too much into this, or should i be this bothered about it? i really dont know why im reacting like this, it's just really upset me. hmph. now ive got that off my chest, another rant.. (sorry, im abusing this account really badly.) so, theres this boy in my year at school. i've liked him since the end of last year. and we've been, like, really close friends for about 3 months now, and the other day we were just talking and i realized i just wana be friends with him. and then i've been treating him like my friend, and now he seems really interested in me. like, he's been treating me like i was treating him when i liked him, and i just can't get my head around it. did he like me before but didnt wana say? or is he just acting awkward? he did it before, and then as soon as i acted the littlest bit interested in him again, then he turned back to the 'i couldn't really give a damn, i dont like you in that kinda way' boy that he was before. grrrrrrr. i cannot understand boys at all. ok, ok. i'm done with the ranting. but, i can't be bothered to update now. my mate, jake, has been talking me through this and helping me out and now im just guna sit and listen to what he's go to say, because it seems like all we talk about is me. wow. at least SOME boys can be easy to understand. (: question: will you answer the questions at the end of my 2 rants?
thankyou. i PROMISE i'll update tomorrow. xxx | | |
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